feeling crafty

So I decided to get really crafty today after AJ left for work. I have really wanted to make a car seat canopy for some time now but couldn't ever find a pattern at the store that I liked. Well I was looking online at some tutorials and came across one that looked pretty easy.
So I got out this material that I've been holding onto for a while and started the project. To my surprise it was so much easier than I thought and it only took me an hour, start to finish.

Its been a pretty fun week. AJ even got to see the baby kicking. He freaked out a little, and lets be honest it is a little weird to see a tummy moving that way. Its been great for me though because it makes me think that he is finally getting excited about the baby.
I already love him so much and I'll admit that I'm really anxious to meet him.

Other than that I really don't think life could be any better at the moment. I have a wonderful husband whom I love and adore, and a great extended family. I have plenty of projects and crafts that keep me busy and tons of food in my fridge and freezer to help me hone my cooking skills. Oh, and a husband who cleans the kitchen, because it makes me sick to be in there for too long. What else can a girl ask for?

I have a few worries about becoming a mother, but I have faith that the Lord will help me be the person that I need to be. AJ will be a great father and I have no doubts whatsoever about his abilities. After all, he is so childlike himself sometimes, how can he not be great at raising one?

Life is just wonderful.

Just sitting here thinking

There are two songs that keep running through my mind every time I think about my son. I'll just put up the lyrics to the first cause its my favorite.

I remember sayin' I don't care either way
Just as long as he or she is healthy, I'm okay
And then the doctor pointed to the corner of the screen
And said, "You see that thing right there? Well, you know what that means"

I started wondering who he was going to be
And I thought heaven help us if he's anything like me

He'll probably climb a tree too tall and ride his bike too fast
End up every summer wearin' something in a cast
He's gonna throw a ball and break some glass
In a window down the street

He's gonna get in trouble, oh, he's gonna get in fights
I'm gonna lose my temper and some sleep
It's safe to say that I'm gonna get my payback
If he's anything like me

I can see him right now, knees all skinned up
With a magnifying glass tryin' to melt a Tonka truck
Won't he be a sight with his football helmet on?
That'll be his first love 'til his first love comes along

He'll get his heart broke by the time he's in his teens
And heaven help him if he's anything like me

He'll probably stay out too late and drive his car too fast
Get a speeding ticket, he'll pay for mowing grass
He's gonna get caught skippin' class
And be grounded for a week

He's gonna get into trouble, we're gonna get in fights
I'm gonna lose my temper and some sleep
It's safe to say that I'm gonna get my payback
If he's anything like me

He's gonna love me
And hate me along the way
The years are gonna fly by
And I already dread the day

He's gonna hug his mama, he's gonna shake my hand
He's gonna act like he can't wait to leave

But as he drives out he'll cry his eyes out
If he's anything like me
There's worst folks to be like, oh, he'll be alright
If he's anything like me


It really makes me think about what our son is going to be like. I can't wait to get to know him. I really hope he's like his dad.

The Good Stuff

just a few ultrasound pictures
cutest little sandals my mom bought for me on clearance!! I love them
some cute little outfits for our son.
documentation of how big i'm getting to be.
a little closer up on the goods.
He's definitely a boy!

I can't help but imagine what he's going to be like and what things he's going to like.
I am so excited for AJ to have a son! I think he will be the greatest father!

finished product

its finally done. I' cross stitched this for the baby's room. Pretty excited about it, and about how cute it turned out.

more excitement: on sunday I will be 20 weeks along, officially halfway.
even more excitement: on tuesday I will have my anatomy scan, where they look at all of my baby's organs and make sure everything is growing nicely, and they also take a look see at the gender and I am so excited to find out!

Inside my mind

Its been a tough week for me, emotionally speaking.
First off... I have written this blog several times over the last 2 years and have deleted it every time because I don't want all the comments and attention over it, and also because I don't want everyone to get offended, but I've decided that I need to get it off my chest because that is the only way to heal.
I have no friends, only people who were once my best friends, and now we say we need to get together or hang out... but its never going to happen. Why? Because I have stopped making the effort. I almost never get those random texts or calls, but once upon a time I made a lot of them. When I stopped making effort is exactly when we stopped being friends. That really sucks. But the good news is that I still love each and every one of my friends that I had just the same as I always did.
so here's a letter to all of my used to be friends

Hi,
I really miss hanging out with you and I wish we really would get together more often. I miss being close and laughing all the time, and doing crazy fun things together. I wish we could go on more adventures. Once upon a time we were best friends, we told each other everything and we cried together, and laughed together. Sometimes I still need that; need to talk out all my fears and worries, need to talk about all the things that make me happy.
I'm about to start on this new adventure, motherhood, and I really want to share it with you, I love you and want you to be a part of this baby's life. I want to cry on your shoulder and tell you about all my fears about becoming a mommy and if I'll be any good at it. I want you to come shopping with me for all those little baby items. I want you to be a part of my life.
I want you to call me on the phone and talk for hours about your life and all of the things that make you happy and sad and worried and crazy.
I want to be like family.

If you want that too... maybe you should text me, and maybe someday we really will have lunch.
Love, Me

Birthday

I had such a good Birthday this year, even though it was simple. My mom bought me my very first large purchase for my birthday and because we found a great deal. we got this cute car seat


with a matching stroller. (Teddy bear was not included in this deal, it was mine already)

this is the inside of the stroller and car seat canvas. I love it! Its so colorful!

this is a cross stitch that I am working on for the baby's room and for my birthday I got to go get some flosses that I was missing.


AJ got me this wonderful movie to add to my Disney collection and we sad down and watched it in 3D first thing.



This is the cutest little doll that AJ got me! For those of you who don't know I am obsessed with Disney and Sleeping Beauty is my favorite. My AJ spoils me so bad.

We also went to Red Lobster for their endless shrimp special! It was WONDERFUL. Loved it. We're going again before the deal is over this month.

Frustrated

My emotions this past week have been a roller coaster. I know its because I'm pregnant, but it has been so hard for me to remain calm and happy. Things that normally could slide right off my back have hit me so much harder than normal. I'm mad at things I shouldn't be, and sad at things that are very minor. Its been very hard. Thank Heaven for Conference, and for my husband who really is my best friend and is so willing to listen to my feelings and for my mom who is ready to deal with my emotions whenever and however they come.

All of that being said it has also been a wonderful week for me. I have finally realized what that little flutter is in my tummy. Its a beautiful baby in there, making his or her vigor for life very apparent. Its been so wonderful, when I am especially down, to feel those little kicks and punches. Its as if baby is saying to me "mommy I love you!" and that is wonderfully fulfilling. Even AJ has been able to feel a kick or two! It doesn't happen a lot but its so reassuring when it does.
I'm 17 weeks along today! Only just over 3 weeks before we find out if we're welcoming a little boy or girl.
Also exciting news.... my BIRTHDAY is on Tuesday. I'll be 22 which is so weird to me. I'm excited though to celebrate.