In my mail box today I got a copy of two very special magazines in my life. The first and the one I'm most excited about is the Ensign! All about the Book of Mormon. I love this and hope to use it in my personal scripture study. I feel that this edition of the magazine was an answer to many prayers of mine. I have been struggling with my study of the Book of Mormon, mostly because I feel so ignorant and "stupid" when reading it. I know fully well that we learn gospel doctrine "line upon line, and precept upon precept" but its hard to tell yourself not to get discouraged when it feels like the people around you know so much more than you do. Understanding, of course, that when men go on missions they have countless hours during that 2 years to study this amazing book and learn so many things from it; but I still tend to succumb to jealousy that I don't know as much about the gospel as he does, and I want to learn and get at least close so that when we discuss things pertaining to the gospel I don't feel as though I'm the student and he the teacher.
This is my other magazine and a passion/talent of mine which I adore. Crochet is a therapeutic experience for me and I am so grateful to have a subscription to a magazine that has patterns, technique advice and much more. It has been wonderful to try new things that come out of these magazines and to watch my talent get better and better. I really feel like this is a talent I can brag about and possibly share with others. To see what comes out of a long piece of yarn and the magic that I myself can create with one little hook. Its amazing.
This is a shout out to my mother. I am soon to become a mom, but I couldn't do it without mine. She is always so willing to listen to me complain about pregnancy and to surrender to my weird cravings without judgement. Also she has helped me buy some necessary maternity wear (silly me to think I could keep most of my normal wardrobe) that I haven't been able to afford to buy myself lately (saving for a baby and planning for baby purchases takes a lot more budgeting and saving than I thought it would). So special thanks to my mommy, hopefully I can be as good a mommy as she has been to me.
Finally I am just UBER grateful for the gospel in general lately. I've learned a lot since that wonderful/exhausting process we call repentance. It was a long road and even though sometimes its hard to look back and remember who I was, it reminds me of who I am now and makes me extra grateful for the knowledge that I HAVE gained in the last 3 years. I feel such wonderful peace and absolute joy with everything that my life now is, and I can't help but be giddy with excitement about the gospel for bringing that peace to my life.
I hope you guys know how amazing the gospel is and even if you don't believe in it.
Goodnight!
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